Best start to ; 2010!

ahhhhhhhhhs 2010 ; so far has been a real bitch lately ):

arguements with rents right now ;

problems with people

been hospital and hitted pretty bad - mmmmmm nice / excellent start to a new decade for me ..

just thing with family honestly people think my family is good?

nott even close we look good like what the nice stepdad my lovely funny mum and 2 sweet brothers..

PSHHHHH lies =="

my brothers Fabio does have a heart of gold honestly ; hugo well he can just be really annoying but nice also towards me , its my rents that fucking kill my life even since i dno probably start of highschool or yr8 i dont remba but even since ive gotten older trying to figure out my life its been fucked up cos ;

• My real dad is overseas in America so i dnt see him or talk to him as much as i want to.
• My stepdad can be a real asshole like no fuking joke:@ NOT just towards me even to my brothers especially 2 my mum
• My mum can REALLY fuck me up in headaches ; dramas and i dont even ask 2 be involved..

its just i dno i wish AWHOLE lot of things with my family was honestly different :(

i mean im always involved in these fucked up shit :'( why i dno cos of my mum and stepdad dem 2 fuck KILL MY LIFE!

example in the end for my 18th im mostly likely 2 pay in the end and if i have to i will cos dere 2 cnt sort out shit esp my stepdad cos my mum says forget him he isnt going to pay shit its like what the fuck its my FUCKING 18TH!

i only turn 18 ONCE in my life - i truly do not want to regret things ..

and my mum arghhhhhhhhhh FUCKING always compares shit to me ; bout her life ; me and my brother fabio ; DAT just kills me so much cos its like every situation fabio will be brought up and she said say if this was fabio he would say okay mum den dats it end of story & she would put me down no matter what ..

right now my family is pissing me off sometimes i did wish i did live with my dad becos he would help me out with things even tho some little things do upset me bout my dad but arghhhhhh

im so pissed off:@